I talk out loud – creating conversation. I visualize facial expressions – squinting, mouth tightening, furrowing brows. I observe me – my breathing, my heartbeat, my hands clenching. Then I listen. Where is this taking me? What should happen next? How will this all come together? And then there is silence. I wait. But the voices are mute. I try to force them, but it’s no use. … [Read more...]